Moral issue dating cousin
He would go every so often to see this girl he liked at the time and when she wasn't there, he and I would chat, uneasily at first but quickly gaining more confidence in each other.
I got into my first serious relationship and when I broke up with my boyfriend, I turned to my cousin for advice and such and we started talking even more.
I've tried unsuccessfully to break up with him countless times but his patiences perseveres and I always end up with him again.
In Christmas of 2008 ,we had intimate relations for the first time and two months ago ,we finally went all the way.
I was confused for like two seconds but then I kissed him back.Since day one I knew our relationship was not meant to be and told him so, but he always replies the same thing -that he knows it but he can't help but love me.He also got into a really serious relationship with a younger girl and they were going to elope but her personality and his started to clash and eventually they broke up.He was very upset and by this point I already had strong feelings toward him so I was there to help him like he helped me cope.Now I know I will love him forever and cannot get him out of my mind but I'm scared of my family.
My dad has always suspected and he doesn't approve of him and me even hanging out together.